wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend...
1:46 pm & 10.22.06
deleted my entry before this, it was useless & without a point.
this whole goddamned weekend i had one goal : to ask you one fucking question, & i can't even bring myself to do that!
it was what i wanted to do friday after school, friday night. i planned on doing it when i saw you saturday, when i got a free moment, when everyone else was warming up. i wanted to talk to you alone this morning so i could ask you but i couldn't do that either.
i almost did before i got in my truck. but if i asked you probably would've just went "tia" & sighed or shook your head, & then i would just stop you & leave.
i have been completely pathetic this week. i am just pathetic in general.
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